Blog 1 on Faith

Sometimes faith can be something very hard to come by, you know when life gets tough or when things seem inevitable. Today's blog -- times that I have had no faith and had a hard time with religion.

1. Anorexia -- This was a time that I struggled with the section of religion that lets us know that we are god's original masterpiece, he made us how he wanted us, and we don't need to be any certain way to fit into his kingdom because his love is unconditional.
2. Injury's (Knee and Back) -- What did I do to deserve this, How is this going to make me a stronger person, Where is this leading? All of these questions have run through my head throughout injuries because I do not understand how taking my dream away will end up correct for me. I have a hard time understanding God.
3. Our youth pastor leaving to go back to Seminary -- the Youth group I go to just in the last year lost the best youth director that anyone could ask for, and he was often the one that got my mind thinking and focusing on my religion, and after he left, I didn't focus on my daily devotionals and set aside moments of silence that I need to clear my head, and just focus are our father in heaven.

I learn at the end of most of these that there is a reason for all of it, and this is the times we must have faith the most, because he does have a plan.

Who am I?

Sometimes, I think that we are a little bit narrow minded, we can only see ourselves as one thing. But God wants us to realize that we have many talents that can be used for his glory, and many things that define who we are.

I am...

1. A gymnast (whether it be in heart or body)

2. A Christian.

3. A female.

4. Sarah Mary Louise Bowley.

5. An intelligent person.

6. A hardworker.

7. A leader.

8. A sister, and daughter.

9. A singer.

10. A Child of God.

Post Op Knee Surgery

The surgery went well, just as planned and i didn't really have all that much pain because of the timing of the pain killers. The only thing that hurt was moving it to go to the bathroom or anything like that, which the doctor said that he was very impressed by how high my pain tolerance was because not very many of his patients come out of the surgery room saying that there is nothing wrong the next day. I didn't feel much of anything. Also they did this really cool little thing which is called a nerve block which causes me not to feel much of anything for up to 24 hours afterwards, so that I can avoid major pain. This was a very wierd sensation, I didn't feel a thing like if someone touched my leg I didn't feel anything at all! It was kinda creepy actually to tell ya the truth. The other creepy thing is that I still don't have feeling in much of the skin on my shin! I think some of the nerve endings were damaged during surgery. All in all not as bad as I expected it to be!

Funny Comments on Loratab

-OMG My leg machine looks like a teddy bear.
-My leg has turned funny colors haha. :)
-Dr: Who is that boy Sarah is it your boyfriend?
 Sarah: No, haha it's my brother
 Dr: But you don't have a brother.
 Sarah: O, I meant it was my coach. His name is Josh.
 Dr: Okay coach, brother, are you sure he is not your boyfriend?
-There is a bandaid in a very unappropriate place!
-This machine is rather uncomfortable, it vibrates funny!
-NICEEEEE! (lots of giggling)
-I'm floating on clouds!
-Mom, I gotta go to the bathroom! Are you sure, because if I get the whole nursing team in here, all the visitors out, and then you don't have to, I will be extremely angry! haha.
-If there is a fight you better take it outside because this morphine makes me emotional and I will cry!
-I put a comment on a friends status, talking about how I hated being young and not being able to drive! I have been driving for over a year, and I have my full license haha! :P

KNEE SURGERY & Gymnastics

Tomorrow is my knee surgery! I am not looking forward to not being able to walk again, but I am looking forward to getting better and being able to do the physio and get back to gymnastics super duper fast! Well okay that may be an exaggeration because I know the next six months are not going to be a fun time at all, as well as the three months following that because of the way it will be so hard to get back into the sports day! Some people think that I am crazy, just today Luke asked me why I had not quit gymnastics yet, and his mother said I was "killing myself, and my aging would be really awesome" but I don't know, I just can let it go, I love it way to much! So be praying because nine months from now I am going to be back on the gym floor and better then ever.

FIVE THINGS I HAVE LEARNED ABOUT LIFE!

            A) I have learned that life can really stink sometimes, and we have to turn to our friends beside us to help us through it.

B) I have learned that God is going to be there throughout your entire life, and no matter how hard you try he will not leave your side.

C) I have learned that being a role model for others is just as important as having a role model to look up too.

D) I have learned that the moment you feel comfortable with your life, God will remind you that you are not in control.

E) I have learned that decisions you make really can affect the outcome of your future, whether they be in your education or social life.

Physical Therapy!

TODAY IS A VERY IMPORTANT DAY. A MILE STONE IF YOU WILL!

TODAY is the day that I begin my PHYSICAL THERAPY! and the road to getting better, and being about to do gymnastics again! Only 162 more days til 6 Months will be up! :) Now I know thats a long time and I seem happy about it, but believe me that is just the face that I am putting on most of the time. Now at nights, and times when I have a long time to sit there and think.... well lets just say it's not to pretty! Today is a lot of things really: February 18th, 2011, a Pep Rally, Flex Friday, another day with my BEST FRIEND BREANNA! The beginning of the Quote Project, and a new vocabulary chapter, Chapter three in the spanish novel, and studying for a Biology Test. Rather actually to much homework!! :/ But none the less this is a day that I will never EVER forget!