PROM

So I think that I have decided that PROM is sooo stressful, for what like 4 hours? The dress, the hair, the make-up, the shoes, the jewelry, the date, the tux, the transportation, what to do before & after, and what to say when you get asked by someone that you dont want to go with, I mean geeze, who comes up with a high school dance that is this stressful. I mean seriously who has this type of money to spend, expensive dress ($200ish) , nails ($30), hair ($50) , new shoes ($30), jewelry (who knows), tickets ($17) and so on.... Since it's just my junior year I am not going all out this time, but something else that I have to worry about and that makes things more stressful is that i am going to 2!!! Yep, 2 proms! Daviess County's (this weekend, April 16) and Apollo's (a long way away still, May 7) I am sooo excited I have two dresses (a baby blue one with spaghetti straps, and a red strapless one), and two dates (Justin Miller, and Shon Smith)and the whole thing is gonna be a trip! :) More to come later on!

Spring Break Buddies

This year for spring break we did not go anywhere other then the UK visit on Tuesday. Me and a group of seniors and a few juniors that did not travel this Spring Break had a mission to do everything that there is for a teenager to do in Owensboro over the break. We did a good job trying to accomplish this, as to the fact that we did something together every single day. Monday- movie & lunch at JoJo's house -- moving to a game night at my house, Tuesday- UK visit, Wednesday- get together at my house, which led to going out to eat, and to Walmart. Thursday- Mini golf and going to Arbys after, then moving on to my house again. Friday-- mall & Jojo's and Ceci's house which was fun, then Saturday-- bon fire at hannahs!! Sunday-- Jacob came over and we had a homework party. Lastly also I threw work, and physical therapy in there also! AWESOME SPRING BREAK! :)

Blog 4 on Faith: A big leap

Our newest youth director seems to try to help us, and it just does not seem to be working. So I am going to take a big leap of Faith and try to help him. Sometimes it is obvious that people are nervous, or not comfortable in a given situation. I am going to speak with him about how I can help and why maybe some of the kids in our Youth Group are not ready to accept a new person yet. They may have been attached to Adam, or they may have gotten through big obstacles with Adam. It has a lot to do with the fact that for three years he was an amazing person to talk to. So I am using this blog as a way to pray and say please god this is a huge step for me to make to try to make peace. Help me to have your words to know what to say to him and not to make him feel bad about what he is trying to do.

Blog 3 On Faith

Though people can help you along the way on your Faith journey, ultimately it is you that has to make the commitment. This commitment is hard for many people because of things that they cannot see. I don't think that it is the not seeing God thing that bothers me. The problem I have is with how the bible differs from the original texts, and how some of the original Gospels, and other books of the bible have been left out and discovered later. For example to me, It is interesting how the Gospel of Mark (the supposed first one to be written) does not include the Christmas story, or the birth of Jesus. That is okay, but I want to know where the other three Gospels found that information to just include in their stories. Some people say that the birth of Jesus is found in the mysterious "Q" Gospel. But I have trouble believing this, if there is this "Q" Gospel, where is it and why have we not found it over all these years. Faith is an ongoing battle, that I believe it is okay to question, because no body knows the answers and the more questions you ask maybe we will get closer to finding out what a true life in Christ is. All I know is that I am very curious about all these answers.

Blog 2 On Faith

Faith is a mystery really. You never know what you are going to do, or have done to you that is going to challege your faith! But Faith is kinda actually a little bazarre if you think about it you're believing in something that you have probably never seen or heard, something that they cannot prove is real. Though people say they have heard the voice of god, or seen miracles; there is always a part of me that wonders about things. Not saying I don't have any Faith because i do. But just saying that I ponder things that having Faith in seems so unrealistic. I believe that there are always points in life where we will struggle with faith or feel as if nothing is right, but those are the times that Faith is the most important. Also, there are those people that help you in your Faith. I would like to dedicate this to Adam Quine. This man was my former youth director and a pretty cool guy. He just seemed to have a way of saying things that made me understand, made it just a little clearer, now I don't know if this was because he was just a little older and still thought alot like a teenager. But I think that God was finding ways to speak to me through him, during times where Faith and all other things seemed hopeless he founds ways to break through the walls the way that I needed. I got through a lot of different battles with God, with letting out my feelings and emotions to him, the "safe adult" that most of those videos talk about. I think that God blessed me with such an amazing person in my life. He taught many things about COMMUNITY, LOVE, & the meaning of knowing yourself, not just for what you do. Also, he very much taught me that silence is just as important as what you say and do, just to think, meditate, and devote time for yourself, and for God. Music is another thing that he taught me to cherish, and a big part of my faith is present through songs i sing, and love. Thank you God, and Adam Quine for teaching me these things!

Blog 1 on Faith

Sometimes faith can be something very hard to come by, you know when life gets tough or when things seem inevitable. Today's blog -- times that I have had no faith and had a hard time with religion.

1. Anorexia -- This was a time that I struggled with the section of religion that lets us know that we are god's original masterpiece, he made us how he wanted us, and we don't need to be any certain way to fit into his kingdom because his love is unconditional.
2. Injury's (Knee and Back) -- What did I do to deserve this, How is this going to make me a stronger person, Where is this leading? All of these questions have run through my head throughout injuries because I do not understand how taking my dream away will end up correct for me. I have a hard time understanding God.
3. Our youth pastor leaving to go back to Seminary -- the Youth group I go to just in the last year lost the best youth director that anyone could ask for, and he was often the one that got my mind thinking and focusing on my religion, and after he left, I didn't focus on my daily devotionals and set aside moments of silence that I need to clear my head, and just focus are our father in heaven.

I learn at the end of most of these that there is a reason for all of it, and this is the times we must have faith the most, because he does have a plan.

Who am I?

Sometimes, I think that we are a little bit narrow minded, we can only see ourselves as one thing. But God wants us to realize that we have many talents that can be used for his glory, and many things that define who we are.

I am...

1. A gymnast (whether it be in heart or body)

2. A Christian.

3. A female.

4. Sarah Mary Louise Bowley.

5. An intelligent person.

6. A hardworker.

7. A leader.

8. A sister, and daughter.

9. A singer.

10. A Child of God.