Blog 4 on Faith: A big leap

Our newest youth director seems to try to help us, and it just does not seem to be working. So I am going to take a big leap of Faith and try to help him. Sometimes it is obvious that people are nervous, or not comfortable in a given situation. I am going to speak with him about how I can help and why maybe some of the kids in our Youth Group are not ready to accept a new person yet. They may have been attached to Adam, or they may have gotten through big obstacles with Adam. It has a lot to do with the fact that for three years he was an amazing person to talk to. So I am using this blog as a way to pray and say please god this is a huge step for me to make to try to make peace. Help me to have your words to know what to say to him and not to make him feel bad about what he is trying to do.

Blog 3 On Faith

Though people can help you along the way on your Faith journey, ultimately it is you that has to make the commitment. This commitment is hard for many people because of things that they cannot see. I don't think that it is the not seeing God thing that bothers me. The problem I have is with how the bible differs from the original texts, and how some of the original Gospels, and other books of the bible have been left out and discovered later. For example to me, It is interesting how the Gospel of Mark (the supposed first one to be written) does not include the Christmas story, or the birth of Jesus. That is okay, but I want to know where the other three Gospels found that information to just include in their stories. Some people say that the birth of Jesus is found in the mysterious "Q" Gospel. But I have trouble believing this, if there is this "Q" Gospel, where is it and why have we not found it over all these years. Faith is an ongoing battle, that I believe it is okay to question, because no body knows the answers and the more questions you ask maybe we will get closer to finding out what a true life in Christ is. All I know is that I am very curious about all these answers.

Blog 2 On Faith

Faith is a mystery really. You never know what you are going to do, or have done to you that is going to challege your faith! But Faith is kinda actually a little bazarre if you think about it you're believing in something that you have probably never seen or heard, something that they cannot prove is real. Though people say they have heard the voice of god, or seen miracles; there is always a part of me that wonders about things. Not saying I don't have any Faith because i do. But just saying that I ponder things that having Faith in seems so unrealistic. I believe that there are always points in life where we will struggle with faith or feel as if nothing is right, but those are the times that Faith is the most important. Also, there are those people that help you in your Faith. I would like to dedicate this to Adam Quine. This man was my former youth director and a pretty cool guy. He just seemed to have a way of saying things that made me understand, made it just a little clearer, now I don't know if this was because he was just a little older and still thought alot like a teenager. But I think that God was finding ways to speak to me through him, during times where Faith and all other things seemed hopeless he founds ways to break through the walls the way that I needed. I got through a lot of different battles with God, with letting out my feelings and emotions to him, the "safe adult" that most of those videos talk about. I think that God blessed me with such an amazing person in my life. He taught many things about COMMUNITY, LOVE, & the meaning of knowing yourself, not just for what you do. Also, he very much taught me that silence is just as important as what you say and do, just to think, meditate, and devote time for yourself, and for God. Music is another thing that he taught me to cherish, and a big part of my faith is present through songs i sing, and love. Thank you God, and Adam Quine for teaching me these things!

Blog 1 on Faith

Sometimes faith can be something very hard to come by, you know when life gets tough or when things seem inevitable. Today's blog -- times that I have had no faith and had a hard time with religion.

1. Anorexia -- This was a time that I struggled with the section of religion that lets us know that we are god's original masterpiece, he made us how he wanted us, and we don't need to be any certain way to fit into his kingdom because his love is unconditional.
2. Injury's (Knee and Back) -- What did I do to deserve this, How is this going to make me a stronger person, Where is this leading? All of these questions have run through my head throughout injuries because I do not understand how taking my dream away will end up correct for me. I have a hard time understanding God.
3. Our youth pastor leaving to go back to Seminary -- the Youth group I go to just in the last year lost the best youth director that anyone could ask for, and he was often the one that got my mind thinking and focusing on my religion, and after he left, I didn't focus on my daily devotionals and set aside moments of silence that I need to clear my head, and just focus are our father in heaven.

I learn at the end of most of these that there is a reason for all of it, and this is the times we must have faith the most, because he does have a plan.

Who am I?

Sometimes, I think that we are a little bit narrow minded, we can only see ourselves as one thing. But God wants us to realize that we have many talents that can be used for his glory, and many things that define who we are.

I am...

1. A gymnast (whether it be in heart or body)

2. A Christian.

3. A female.

4. Sarah Mary Louise Bowley.

5. An intelligent person.

6. A hardworker.

7. A leader.

8. A sister, and daughter.

9. A singer.

10. A Child of God.

Post Op Knee Surgery

The surgery went well, just as planned and i didn't really have all that much pain because of the timing of the pain killers. The only thing that hurt was moving it to go to the bathroom or anything like that, which the doctor said that he was very impressed by how high my pain tolerance was because not very many of his patients come out of the surgery room saying that there is nothing wrong the next day. I didn't feel much of anything. Also they did this really cool little thing which is called a nerve block which causes me not to feel much of anything for up to 24 hours afterwards, so that I can avoid major pain. This was a very wierd sensation, I didn't feel a thing like if someone touched my leg I didn't feel anything at all! It was kinda creepy actually to tell ya the truth. The other creepy thing is that I still don't have feeling in much of the skin on my shin! I think some of the nerve endings were damaged during surgery. All in all not as bad as I expected it to be!

Funny Comments on Loratab

-OMG My leg machine looks like a teddy bear.
-My leg has turned funny colors haha. :)
-Dr: Who is that boy Sarah is it your boyfriend?
 Sarah: No, haha it's my brother
 Dr: But you don't have a brother.
 Sarah: O, I meant it was my coach. His name is Josh.
 Dr: Okay coach, brother, are you sure he is not your boyfriend?
-There is a bandaid in a very unappropriate place!
-This machine is rather uncomfortable, it vibrates funny!
-NICEEEEE! (lots of giggling)
-I'm floating on clouds!
-Mom, I gotta go to the bathroom! Are you sure, because if I get the whole nursing team in here, all the visitors out, and then you don't have to, I will be extremely angry! haha.
-If there is a fight you better take it outside because this morphine makes me emotional and I will cry!
-I put a comment on a friends status, talking about how I hated being young and not being able to drive! I have been driving for over a year, and I have my full license haha! :P

KNEE SURGERY & Gymnastics

Tomorrow is my knee surgery! I am not looking forward to not being able to walk again, but I am looking forward to getting better and being able to do the physio and get back to gymnastics super duper fast! Well okay that may be an exaggeration because I know the next six months are not going to be a fun time at all, as well as the three months following that because of the way it will be so hard to get back into the sports day! Some people think that I am crazy, just today Luke asked me why I had not quit gymnastics yet, and his mother said I was "killing myself, and my aging would be really awesome" but I don't know, I just can let it go, I love it way to much! So be praying because nine months from now I am going to be back on the gym floor and better then ever.